me

its has been a long time I don't write anything in here. I take my time to breathe quality air, to fill my lungs with O2 oxygen and to full my heart with love and care to myself.

I don't feel to share many things because I love myself. I don't want any other person to broke that privacy. I want to lock it tight and tighter so the lock code won't be revealed. such a relieve

carefree, far from worries and pain. nobody cares. it just me and my free soul.

I keep telling myself to live in dark, just you, yourself and god. cause the only god really knows the meaning of love, care, feelings, hardship, struggle, and companion. he is always there for me. to be real I somehow sometime sit in the foggy vision I cant straightly see god as the true love, keep seeking the 'true love' from a human that imperfect and weak. I love my god everyone does. his love work for us, but hardly we work our love for him.

sad.